It is 4:40 in the morning, and unfortunately this is one of those nights where as soon as I got tired and laid down, I started feeling buzzing in my face and the feeling of being tired went away.
My cat was dead asleep curled up by my partners legs.
I hear one of the child predators that has a dialogue with me inside my head talk about how he’s going to steal my Alienware Laptop to give to a 13-year-old girl who he referenced by name. I quip back in my internal monologue that whoever just said that is a pedophile.
Not seconds after I thought that in my internal monologue my cat started dry heaving on the bed. The cat hasn’t thrown up in a while. As soon as the cat actually threw up, the child predator that can talk in my internal monologue said he did that because I called him a pedophile.
I have this entire sequence on camera if anybody is interested in seeing the footage.
The sad thing is the 13-year-old girl he’s talking about giving my laptop to is my cousins girlfriend’s kid. That kid isn’t my cousin’s biological kid. I can’t say for sure whether my cousin is the one talking as no one uses names when talking to me. It must be someone that knows her to feel comfortable stealing my laptop and walking up to her to give it to her.
Keep in mind, I “hallucinated” the taste of a female child’s genitals about a year ago due to my “mental health condition”. I knew what the taste was because when I was a kid, I had smelled it more than once. I was driving in Parma turning right after being stopped at a stop sign when it happened.
The fact that it only happened one time leads me to believe that another person somewhere near me had to actually realize the taste and share it in real-time. Otherwise, why not torture me with it all the time? The fact that I haven’t let it go since it happened may be why it hasn’t been shared with me again. I worry that it’s still going on regularly. The police don’t seem to care though.
The only reason I still have my laptops in my possession is because I carry both of them with me everywhere I go. I don’t even feel comfortable enough to leave them in the bedroom with the camera running while I’m gone. I would really like to be able to leave my devices at home when I leave the house. Until there is some sort of resolution, this is unfortunately how I have to live.